This week has been pretty...overwhelming.

Is there really something wrong with me?? Am i such a bad person?
...everywhere i go i'm reminded that i'm such a horrible person.
Am I really that horrible?
Am I not meant to be here?
...
The other person that is my half is feeling the same way. ...not good.
As long as he makes it through, that's all that matters.

I just am hating humanity right now. Why do we have to lie and hurt others? Why do we have to speak, while knowing it's not the truth?

Today during church I think I'm going to break down crying while praying...things just don't make sense right now.
I can tell that my family knows that something is up...they just don't know what it is.

...i will write more later